lessons wasnt so bad tdy . cause there werent much of it .
PE 1st hour was not bad . pull ups .
E.lit at com lab was chatting session .
Free lesson resulted in me havin hour and a half for recess .
Math was chatting session too .
not bad of a timetable huh ? i love fridays .

slacked outside school during the hour plus break .
SS workshop was more fun tis time , in fact it was great .
learnt some quite useful thins tis time round .
Angelica u so owe me!!! those were model ans u know!

went bball aft school . some disputes were solved . everythins alright .

planning to stare to blank space and clear my mind so i can sleep ltr .

p.s : drowned by fatigue .

skipped school . i realise how random my mood is nowadays .
went to flora bball court with elton , siang , jaz , jyang , jamal and joel .
went to westwood bball court with elton and jyang at around 7-8 to meet
jermin , ferlin and mark ( jus realised i dunno how spell his name :P )
slacked till 9.30 lik tat then accompany elton wait for 185 then took 181 with jyang .

tat was how boring my day was . im down with fatigue now . gonna try get sleep .
cya people .

p.s : i am losing it , losing myself , lost .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4UBuVLvnbg ( hm ... not bad )

its so boring when others are asleep and u are not . sighs .

feel vry lost and frustrated .
currently not doin anithin at all .
lessons was a dragggggg .
bball aft school . had a super hard match . amazingly won . been a long time since
play so serious . remembered of the old sec three times playin at GP bball court .
those were fun times realli . am hating my height alot now . im lik so darn short !
dammit .

p.s : im stucked in the middle of nowhere .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=93CqIXU93LA ( music makes me feel better )

Cant sleep with all the thins buzzing in my mind .
to all my frens including siang , good luck .
shall go meditate to find answers alr . unlock the secrets of life .
sound so gay .

P.S : I'll try while i still have the mood to .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZDXN9MG-2Q ( so super duper cute sia! )

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iYNUXCmXLPQ ( pure talent sia! jealous! )

in school now :D
had a super slack physics lesson jus now . cause Mr Chia wasnt in .
Arun is now our class entertainment . its nice to see brandon , ziyan and darren ordering him .
k im a saddist . mhmm .

P.S : hopes everybody is havin a nice time lik i am in the school library fb-ing :D

school was a total bore .
mac aft school with siang elton and jyang .
feel so damn messed up . sighs .

P.S : hates all types of schoolwork .

East coast again tdy with tim , siang , shayna and hanyong .
Shayna is havin thigh cramps :D and hanyong is havin real fun poking around ! LOL ! XD
Siang is dead lovesick . Tim is emotionless as always .

P.S : sighs . no life .

for the first time i must admit siang finally knows music . haha .

I met a girl named Tara

And she lived in the heart of America

She liked black caddies,

Listened to Puff Daddy

And danced until her legs were sore.

She worked around a corner

At a diner with a grouchy owner

And her boyfriend Shady dates another girl named Katie,

He loves her definitely maybe

Don't think I can take it,

Wake me when it's over

She lives so far away,

I wish that it was closer

I see you everyday,

I'm too scared to go over.

I wonder what she'd say,

I barely even know her

And how much longer

Will this keep getting stronger?

I wonder what she's doing

When I'm singing myself to sleep

Cause he's a faker,

So see ya later.

I wonder when you'll realize that she means

A lot more to me

I saw you in the hallway

When my last class was just over

It was Friday, school was out

Tonight, everything seems to be alright.

I said,

"Yo, are you going to the party at the cove?"

She said,

"He's picking me up at 6 again,

and I don't wanna disappoint my boyfriend."

And how much longer

Will this keep getting stronger?

I wonder what she's doing

When I'm singing myself to sleep…

Cause he's a faker,

So see ya later.

I wonder when you'll realize that she means

A lot more to me

And she's staring at his picture hanging in her locker,

She's telling all the girls about all the things that he bought her.

I saw what really happened all those time he went for water,

When we were at the movie theatre

Watching Harry Potter.

He had his hands on

Every single girl he laid his eyes on.

Hate to break it to ya,

He's a pylon.

And even when he kissed her,

He was looking over staring at her sister.

And how much longer

Will this keep getting stronger?

I wonder what she's doing

When I'm singing myself to sleep

Cause he's a faker,

So see ya later.

I wonder when you'll realize that she means

A lot more to me

I met a girl named Tara

And she lived in the heart of America

She liked black caddies,

Listened to Puff Daddy

And danced until her legs were sore.

She worked around a corner

At a diner with a grouchy owner

And her boyfriend Shady dates another girl named Katie,

He loves her definitely maybe

got two day mc :DDDDDD
i can stay home and rot all i want muahahahaha

feel crazy . super crazy . :D

P.S : i wanna slack around .

had a packed weekend .
friday went home earlier then went to east coast go fishing with my sis .
was a one hell of a night/morning . slept from 3 in the morning and woke
up to a nasty hangover in the morning . had mac for breakfast . after tat
we decided to slack around . lunched at east coast seafood centre and the
food there is nice :D
reached home at around 6.30 aft tat went to hanyong house to meet shayna
siang and hanyong himself . planned our trip to east coast ( again for me ).

sunday had my religious tuition as usual in the morning . aft tat went home asap.
changed and met the others at control station . shayna was late ! hahas .
anyway went to east coast . mac for lunch and dinner . hanyong finally got the
hang of riding a bike . the sight there is so heartwarming .

wasnt in school tdy . now kinda bored . seriously bored.

P.S : peace at last ...

sorry to people who was affected by my sudden mood change aft recess jus now .

think somethin is realli wrong with me . my temper is lik keep rising and sinking .

somethin interesting and kinda fun is happening to my fren . im the one excited .

goin fishing with my sis toninght . cya peeps .

P.S : i suddenly wanna play bball .

got back my darn lappy at last .
however cant stay late with it anymore ... dammit .

school tdy was a dragggggggg .
i amazingly managed to stay awake through all lessons though im lik super duper tired .
im starting to think im a complete freak . but on the dark side i was late . looks lik late season
is back again . hais . got to skip recess detention .

after school went to find val and ferlin with jaz .
end up me , jaz , val , ferlin , mark and indra slacked at the multi purpose hall tgt .
indra left due to stomachache , tim came shortly after tat , jaz left for tuition .
Mark and ferlin went off tgt . so left me , val and tim rotting there .
Weijing came to lighten thins up a bit . tim went home while me , val and weijing walk towards GP . Weijing continued to GP to meet his frens while i walk val home . aft tat i walk home .

reached home suprisingly quite early .

now is yesterday . i dun remember much but im sure tat me , siang , elton , jermin , jian yang , gerald , rohaizad was at tim house . slacked there till around 5 or 6 not sure .
aft tat went to mac to finally do the geog me and siang planned to do .
was doin halfway then lost the mood to do alr so went home .

P.S : dying away .....

yesterday school was inertia .
was waitin time to pass through all the class .
should realli get some sleep fast . im like livin off paracetamol these days .
anyway Jamal im serious about my last method of goin to sleep if thins dun get any better .
dun punch la ......
after school went to flora bball court with elton and jian yang . was sitting down instead of
playin most of the time . lots of nice memories there so it seems ...

sighs ... elton cant sleep too . bright side im not alone (:

P.S : come on azaad . u are stronger than tis ...

blogging from school now :)

my dad is lik finally pissed off with me not goin to school and using my laptop 24 hours so
he confiscated my laptop . dammit ! now i no choice but go out and meet the public though
im seriously hating bein in any crowd for the moment .

skipped school yesterday . again ... im not sure wats worong with me alr .
gonna have break in 30 mins time and then eng then math and end :D

P.S : tis is harder than i expected .

sighs ... feeling much more calm now .
but tis is when everythin comes flooding back . aw man .... dammit .
goin off to watch the tv alr . cya peeps .

P.S : it's sad when people you know is now people you knew.

somehow feel vryvryvry sad and happy at the same time due to a number of thins . first is u are gone for the better but still u are gone . so tats one sad and one happy . another sad is the senior batch tis year is goin separate ways in months time . less than four i think . Aw.... sighs ...

anyway goin to talk bout tis fascinating vid up there during my and most of the other sec four's orientation :D

came first day fresh and innocent . not realli for me but ya ... still ok la .... faced the annual super long speech by our beloved principal Mrs.Betty Chow . i still remember tat one . tat was the worst . cause the other years i dare go toilet slack (:

00:20 there u can see teoh jian ping . hahaha nice hair .

00:27-00:28 syazwan and afifi still so innocent . look at them now . one playboy and one lovesick . hahas im gonna pay for tis .

00:58 4A people whom last time so adorable but not people to mess with now . better stay away . haha

1:11 three super cute dudes . royce , ali and haikel . wordless . cant believe how irritating and annoying they are nowadays. hahaha

1:26-1:27 tats jamal issit ??? cant tell to much change LOL! anyway tats joel on his left . still good frens till now . friendship last dont they . unlike other shits . hmph . hahas

1:38 prata-man!!! to think he is now the funny guy in my class though he look lik all he do is eat . haha.

1:42 eh? who haven buy uniform ah ??? Lol!!

2:07 i love toybox!!!!! for slow people im referring to the song playing (:

2:21 sheeps out of cage running for freedom XD

2:31 allan chow ??????? hahahahahaha

3:38 spot the flower among the crowd ? hahahaha

3:50 again adorable LAST TIME now try them hahhahaha

4:12 where the two elton from totally different background (and heightXD) meets hahaha

5:07 hafiz and izwan ??? omg so darn different . now all so cool uh ....

5:17 lets skip tis part shall we ...... :D

5:30 miss fong no change hahahahahha

5:55 nice number for a nice event such as first dance uh ? haha

6:07 woohoo im blocked by weiqiao :D im behind lip yong cannot see me (: hahaha

6:25 jamal and joel is lovin tis hahahahha

6:43 ehk??? whos tat cute guy jumping around ??? ROFLMAO!!!!! so short only the duration stupid sia i look for so long than find stupid less than a second . u were tat unpopular . HAHA!!!

6:58 centre of attraction uh .... look at tat HUMONGOUS SMILE ...!

7:13 ewah! hahaha shake ur booty baby hahahha.

7:40 shake it tgt now!!!! LOL!!!

10:24 pause it there! OMG IM ON CAMERA !!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!

10:36 whos the big guy huh???? hahahah hes gonna kill me for tis .

10:39 i see u SNG HANYONG!!!!! nice hair XD

10:55 i am jane and i love to ride an elephant .......

tats the end of it . a pretty summarised one though . im now super tired but not tat i can sleep anyway so im off to rotting once again . hope any of u out there liks tis comments on tis video . hahaha . anyway im holding 2L worth of milk in my hand now i dunno why ??? haha .

CHEERS TO ALL SEC 1 CLASSES OF 2006 . NO MATTER WHETHER U ARE GRADUATING TIS YEAR . WE HAVE BEEN SURVIVING IN TIS AMAZINGLY EXCITING , ACTION-PACKED , LAUGHTER LOADS , SADNESS WAVES , DISAGREEMENT FULL AND EVERTHIN BUT STILL WE HAVE LIVED THROUGH IT ALL . GROWING TGT EXCEPT FOR ME DOESNT SEEM TO GROW . K TATS ALL I HAVE TO SAY. I THINK I WILL REPUBLISH TIS DURING THE DAY OF OUR GRADUATION SO I DUN NEED GO TO THROUGH ALL TIS TROUBLE AGAIN ;D

P.S : im in the mood for a drink . but my parents are awake and my sis is not home and theres school tml . sighs . school tml . LOL i was jus saying how good it actually is . ROFL .

jus finished bathing and getting ready for tml .
lik i predicted i will feel bad when i get back ...
sighs ... was goin on fine . during the whole mac studying time . aft tat went to some carpark
nearby shayna's house there . Siang , tim , shayna , tim was blowing water ballons non-stop .
i was playing pokemon on my phone . (:
but thins kinda went a bit unexpected . then i lazy explain alr ....

i feel lik goin to bermuda triangle and be lost forever cut off from any means of contact with
the world ...

P.S : red , black , white . my fav colour combi ....

feeling super duper merry now not sure why .
jus back from my religious tuition . realised how wonderful my frens there actually are .
they lik see i no mood lik tat then nvr ask alr . so auto right ? hahas . went to our fav void deck during recess and do usual thins . rotting . went back to class late again . hee :D


goin bath for the fifth time tdy . the weather is so darn hot!
aft tat goin meet Siang , Pam and Shayna for hw at mac . woohoo! i dunno wats so fun bout it . but i jus feel good now . may it last forever . hahas .
bet u i will be back all sad all over again . hahahaha .

Jamal : those stupid white small thin dun work on me . im a monster u know right ? haha .
Et : sounds good . i want go atlantic ocean and enter bermuda triangle !!! heehee . (:

P.S : im remembering how i am two years before . damn i was cheerful . ;)

i have the same blog song as elton!!! hahas . wonder wat he thinks of tis ... hee ;)
super bored now ... i want eat apple ... i wanna drink slurpee. hmm...
decided! i want go 7eleven buy drink alr . i want get apple flavoured slurpee (:
cya peeps .

P.S : miss the times when i was still a kid . not caring for anithin . nth at all . sighs ...

cant sleep again . damn .
still cant get u off my mind . nvm shld work on distractions soon . siang i need ur help on tis .
anyway im bored bored bored . jus finished watching scary movie 4 . quite funny la ...
feel a little bit down . but still coping well (:

Siangyee : nowhere near but on tat track . im azaad eh ... i know myself (:
Angelica : hanging on . hahas .
Pam : okiedokie . cya .

P.S : dun mind me . grab tat happiness . (: lil girl ....

reached home earlier than usual yesterday .
hibernated till 5 mins ago . was so darn tired .
my record so far ! 5 hours of sleep for 7 days .
cannot take the exhaustion yesterday end up dead in my bed before
i knew it .

can see thins are finally goin back to wat it was before .
i will jus treat wat happened as one hell of a dream .
good luck , u lovebugs .

Angelica : nvm . i always find my way out of shitty situations (:
Shayna : nvm . it was essential to wake me . dreams are dreams after all .

P.S: u are finally happy i see , mission accomplished in an unexpected way .

im in deep shit now .
cant take my oral without mc , and i dun have any .
f**k everythin sia ....
found somethin out tdy at school . goin to school was a bad idea after all .

P.S: go die la ....

jus finished a super long warm bath . it was unbelievably refreshing .

thnx guys for those words . i get ur point . life must go on . im still way too
young .
sorry tim u had to hear tis moron complaining . i hope u understand
tat the picture is bigger than it is . it was nice tat i can finally tell someone
everythin .

P.S : im jus sixteen! still young ... and im glad tat i am .

fifth post for the day .
i jus realised how f**cked up my life is now .
feel super hungry now and my sis is handling the food part .
im again rotting in front of my lappy lik always .
havin super bad headache . feel lik dyin alr .

P.S: i wanna go back .

was too lazy for school tdy .
so I skipped . wonder wat sort of trouble am I in .
also as a result i missed my mother tongue 'O'lvl oral . nice huh ?
well at least my life gonna have a little excitement from tml onwards .

P.S: im dying .

jus finished watching Euro Trip . R rated oso .
tis is one super nice movie . superb!
except for some sick parts but the overall plot is amazing .
happily ever after kind of movie .

P.S: warning : may involve some scenes unappropiate for children :D

jus finished watching the movie hostel .
NOW I KNOW WHY ITS R21 .
tats one f**kin damn extremely sick show .
it gave me a whole different view on saddist .
i shall continue watching movie cause memories are creeping back
as soon as the movie ended .

P.S: u people should watch hostel .

bball was fine ... though i kinda hate it now .
i kept looking at the place u once appeared from , hoping u will appear .
its time tat i start to learn the harsh truth ...

u suck Azaad .

i think i'll go watch some movies to clear my head .....

Siangyee : apparently we deproved alot . Sighs .
Jamal : i'll keep tryin my fren .

P.S: im getting irrtated with tis cant sleep bullshit !
miss havin u by my side cheering me up ... miss sitting there with u by my side .

totally no mood for school tdy .
was lik dying through all lessons .
needs to catch up with sleep soon .
goin play bball ltr with siang (: lets see how much we deproved .

found out somethin vry heaertwarming tdy . wondering if thins will go fine .

P.S : walkin by the beach ,

toes in the sand ,

i believe in tis ,

'everythin must end'.

super tiring dayyy .....
failed to pay attention in class at all .
i was lik staring to blank space all the time .
damn it all . knew tis would happen .
free lesson is as usual the best ever ! talked to Angelica & Pam
whom those i vry long talk to alr . extra lesson for eng i ended up
in the cafeteria playin guitar instead . so i skipped Eng (:
slept through three quarters of math as nth interesting was happening
by then . slept while waitin for siang to finish POA . went for food
at GP with Elton , Jian yang , Jamal and siang .
bus-ed back home with elton . then home sweet home .

isnt my blogsong nice ??? (:

P.S: somebody giv me directions pls .... LYMY

in the end i nvr sleep again ...
hope i can last in class ltr . hais ...

P.S: wats tis spell u have over me ?

i think somethin is wrong with my brain alr ...
i go crazy alr ... wait i was from the starting .
dreaming of thins tat are nvr coming true .
i suck . seriously . totally . dammit!

chatting with timothy now whom is suprisingly still awake !

P.S: im not admitting defeat yet . not now .

still cant sleep .
i think i exceed 72 hours liao .
crapping around with three people .
Timothy who is watching movie .
Geraldine who is cutting her nails .
Adzdzin who confirm playin games at FB .

im lovin tis weird blogsong of mine !!! :D:D:D:D:D . i love u more .

P.S : im losing control of myself ... 72+ hours ... i miss u .

darn it all . still cant sleep .

P.S: im at lost for words . thinkin bout u each and every second .

been lying down on my bed for dunno how many hours but cant go to sleep .
i think i have been lying there for at least three hours plus .
hais ..... my sleeping pattern is way off .

my operation lock my self at home failed .
went to mac for food with siang shayna and hanyong .
they say tat they were at hanyong's house .
it was jus two more hours and i would have made a record of staying at home .
but i jus have to go out at the last two hours .

cant even keep myself from goin out .
cant even go to sleep .
sucker .

I MISS TIS SONG . I MISS U MORE .

P.S: death awaits when school reopen .

suppose to attend my cousin wedding but was locking myself
up at home . so did not go .
i've got tons of hw left undone and i dun plan to do it at all .

P.S: lost the meaning of life .

41 hours .
i feel myself drifting away .... so super tired but jus cant sleep .

P.S: if its time u need then its time u should get .

super tired .
been awake for 37 h and still counting .

Angelica : dun need treat alr ....
Jamal : i bet azaad would not find tis plan out .
Siangyee : humor rejected .

P.S: is there a way to reattain tis ?

spent the whole darn night at adzdzin's house intending to
complete my assignments . end up as usaul i did nth again .
dammit . complete failure . on everythin .

i regret tat it had to be lik tis .....

P.S: LY always

i seriously cant believe how lucky am i tis holiday .
i dun wan it to end so early .

i will nvr be angry to you (:
will miss u these few days . ):

Pam : cya (:
Jamal : i bet u remember the hair right ? hahas .
Syafiq : lapan satu tiga lapan satu tiga kosong tujuh .
Siangyee : chat place again -_-

P.S : words cant express wat i feel for u . LY2 (:

k .
finally got a hold of myself .
its super late but im still awake .

P.S: Never regret. If it's good, it's wonderful. If it's bad, it's experience.

k .
feel vry f**cked up right now .
should go calm myself down alr .

u were the one who save me from tat deep hole . u have all rights to do watever
u want to me . watever it is tat u want i will go along with ur desicion . dun feel
guilty bout anithin . its nvr ur fault remember tat . and the fact tat i love u still
remains .

P.S: we should talk .